Dedicated to my dear family : James, Jensen and Joel for giving me life
Yesterday was my birthday. First call ring at 12.01 sharp.. Guess who? My lifetime soulmate and best friend, my dear husband James. How I’m still amused that after 12 years together (from friendship until marriage) we still care each other that much. It’s common knowledge that after you have children, it’s hard to find time with your spouse. Romantic things suddenly went off and you forgot what makes you saying “I do” at first place. But James and I are always making effort to keep romance alive. We know each other too well to know what will make other party will be at utmost happiness.
The good thing by marrying your best friend, they know you so well that you don’t have to sweat small stuffs. I know how James wasn’t impressed with all those online social site such as friendster, multiply and of course facebook. His practical mind state, “why should put online things that you can do directly to the person? It’s impersonal”. He’s always this caring, sensitive, introvert and compassionate person. “Scientist” type of guy yet warm inside. Yet he signed up facebook for the sake of me. Cheers to James, who is in the distance, yet somehow always be there for me. Someone who always believes in me, see the good things in me, appreciate what I’ve done, and never break my heart. I’m officially never have broken heart. James is my first and last love. And that makes pursuing my higher degree harder. I have warm, intimate family and home sweet home I should leave behind under few circumstances I couldn’t control.
I thought this birthday will be such “lonely and sad times” when I will be immersing myself with those quantitative concepts (I couldn’t believe that I was teaching one of those subject 8 years ago), and crying under my blanket missing my family and friends. Furthermore, since Joel’s birth last year, I thought I would never have my birthday as Joel’s birthday was only 5 days after me and it’s just efficient way to celebrate his birthday than mine. I don’t mind at all. I’m a mum who would do anything for the sake of my family. There is no little part called Ingrid in me, but James, Jensen and Joel. It’s always about James, Jensen and Joel in every aspect in my life. And that’s the mystery of love I could never understand, how God can transform our selfishness to selfless love to our loved ones.
Then my birthday was followed by tons of calls and messages from my friends all around the world. Unfortunately I got full-day class on Thursday. It’s hardest day in my week with Financial Management first in the morning, and then followed by Managerial Economics (who tumble up all of my logical thinking) and Data & Decision.
I never realized how much I love my hubby until I was apart from him. He’s my first and last love so that’s it. There was little part questioning was I making right decision to marry him? But now, I know how I made best decision in my life.
MBA? I still no idea why I’m doing still trying to find my reasons. I’m always someone who believes that doing something in life, you have to do it from your heart, and as perfectionist and thinker; I don’t find any reason to do it. I’m losing my passion and always around by my warm and intimate family, it’s hard being alone here. My family always share and support, kiss and hug everywhere (if you’re alone, come to our home you will feel welcomed).
Yet miracle happens. My classmates really made my day. It started they brought me flower (it’s still nice till I write this). I was feeling special although I couldn’t entertain my friends’ intention to put flower on my table. I thought it’s going like “attention-seeker” act. I’m not that confident. I’m still that “small-town” girl who is willing to try something but still afraid doing it. Initially shy girl who wrote poetry in the top of her roof, who wanted badly being writer and couldn’t understand why she couldn’t go to literature and psychology major that she loved despite her family intention to take scholarship offered into computer science major.
We spent birthday dinner at Lygon street, my favorite street (because it’s the closest to my place). I’m so happy about birthday wish said by my friends especially part “May your family can go here asap and you can have your own daughter”. Yeah, I want a daughter. James will be so happy with the presence of daughter and so do I. We will be great parent. But of course it’s not now. Yet again, I’m looking forward for Joel’s first birthday on 9th October. Thank you again my friends especially Shilley and Smiley (and if you read this, you know which nicknames RU in). Now I see humanity in MBA ^_^
Yesterday was my birthday. First call ring at 12.01 sharp.. Guess who? My lifetime soulmate and best friend, my dear husband James. How I’m still amused that after 12 years together (from friendship until marriage) we still care each other that much. It’s common knowledge that after you have children, it’s hard to find time with your spouse. Romantic things suddenly went off and you forgot what makes you saying “I do” at first place. But James and I are always making effort to keep romance alive. We know each other too well to know what will make other party will be at utmost happiness.
The good thing by marrying your best friend, they know you so well that you don’t have to sweat small stuffs. I know how James wasn’t impressed with all those online social site such as friendster, multiply and of course facebook. His practical mind state, “why should put online things that you can do directly to the person? It’s impersonal”. He’s always this caring, sensitive, introvert and compassionate person. “Scientist” type of guy yet warm inside. Yet he signed up facebook for the sake of me. Cheers to James, who is in the distance, yet somehow always be there for me. Someone who always believes in me, see the good things in me, appreciate what I’ve done, and never break my heart. I’m officially never have broken heart. James is my first and last love. And that makes pursuing my higher degree harder. I have warm, intimate family and home sweet home I should leave behind under few circumstances I couldn’t control.
I thought this birthday will be such “lonely and sad times” when I will be immersing myself with those quantitative concepts (I couldn’t believe that I was teaching one of those subject 8 years ago), and crying under my blanket missing my family and friends. Furthermore, since Joel’s birth last year, I thought I would never have my birthday as Joel’s birthday was only 5 days after me and it’s just efficient way to celebrate his birthday than mine. I don’t mind at all. I’m a mum who would do anything for the sake of my family. There is no little part called Ingrid in me, but James, Jensen and Joel. It’s always about James, Jensen and Joel in every aspect in my life. And that’s the mystery of love I could never understand, how God can transform our selfishness to selfless love to our loved ones.
Then my birthday was followed by tons of calls and messages from my friends all around the world. Unfortunately I got full-day class on Thursday. It’s hardest day in my week with Financial Management first in the morning, and then followed by Managerial Economics (who tumble up all of my logical thinking) and Data & Decision.
I never realized how much I love my hubby until I was apart from him. He’s my first and last love so that’s it. There was little part questioning was I making right decision to marry him? But now, I know how I made best decision in my life.
MBA? I still no idea why I’m doing still trying to find my reasons. I’m always someone who believes that doing something in life, you have to do it from your heart, and as perfectionist and thinker; I don’t find any reason to do it. I’m losing my passion and always around by my warm and intimate family, it’s hard being alone here. My family always share and support, kiss and hug everywhere (if you’re alone, come to our home you will feel welcomed).
Yet miracle happens. My classmates really made my day. It started they brought me flower (it’s still nice till I write this). I was feeling special although I couldn’t entertain my friends’ intention to put flower on my table. I thought it’s going like “attention-seeker” act. I’m not that confident. I’m still that “small-town” girl who is willing to try something but still afraid doing it. Initially shy girl who wrote poetry in the top of her roof, who wanted badly being writer and couldn’t understand why she couldn’t go to literature and psychology major that she loved despite her family intention to take scholarship offered into computer science major.
We spent birthday dinner at Lygon street, my favorite street (because it’s the closest to my place). I’m so happy about birthday wish said by my friends especially part “May your family can go here asap and you can have your own daughter”. Yeah, I want a daughter. James will be so happy with the presence of daughter and so do I. We will be great parent. But of course it’s not now. Yet again, I’m looking forward for Joel’s first birthday on 9th October. Thank you again my friends especially Shilley and Smiley (and if you read this, you know which nicknames RU in). Now I see humanity in MBA ^_^
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